I’ve noticed something that quite irritating. The thing is, I don’t know if it’s because of my own insecurities that I notice it, and if in fact it even has anything to do with being plus size…

People don’t look me in the face when they talk to me. I have found that people look past me, over me, or just not at me in general. To me eye contact is such a strong communication on it’s own. I find it extremely insulting and hurtful that people do this. That doesn’t mean I want to be stared down either…lol So for any of my friends that read my blog…don’t get any wise ideas!

The reason I wonder if this is associated with my size, mind you this is my mind here…I can connect dots that aren’t even in the same book! LOL but anyways, I have ‘thin’ friends and when they are around, I notice this ‘phenomenon’ even more. I can remember standing next to a girlfriend of mine during a conversation that I thought I was a part of…apparently I was wrong…because although we were all talking and cutting up, no one would look directly at me.

I guess it would be different if I was a horrible person, with the personality of a wet washcloth or some grotesque growth on my face that no one wanted to be caught staring at….but I can cut up with the best of them. Granted I’m no social butterfly, but I’m not a complete outcast either…although I wonder sometimes..

I tell myself to get over it, but there are times that I want to scream “HELLO, Do you not f&(#ing see me! I am standing right here!!

So as you can see….my squeaky little annoying, paranoid, insecure voice has been screaming in my head. One day I am going to squash that little bug. One day!

Posted: December 12th, 2007 under Beautiful Woman Journal.
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It’s been a while since I have had the chance to post to my blog. Thought I would take a minute and catch up.

I haven’t been to the gym in a month or two….I let myself get discouraged and have had a hard time getting back into the swing of it. I will get there…

I’ve been working on being comfortable in my own skin. Who would have thought gaining self confidence would be so damn hard. One bad thought and it’s 10 steps backwards. One kind one and it’s a fricken babystep forward. Sort of hard to gain much ground at this rate…it would be much easier if someone would bottle it up and sell it..I would be first in line!

We went and had family pictures done this weekend…can you believe it has been almost 7 years since the last one! I am sure you can tell how much I dislike pictures…figured we’d better do it before my youngest who is 5….grows up wondering why she isn’t in our pictures! How pitiful is that!

I’ve finally set me up a myspace profile! as well as a Facebook profile. Not that I have a lot of time to do either of them! But thought it would be fun.

Work has been keeping me busy. I have a seminar at the end of this week, love going to them! It’s work and a vacation all in one!

Taking it one day at a time…

Big, Beautiful and Bold!

Posted: November 26th, 2007 under Beautiful Woman Journal, Plus Sized Possibilities, Plus Size Resources.
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If you are in or around Tennessee and are interested in modeling. You should check this out!

Sunday November 11, 2007
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3003 Airways Blvd. Suite 3003
Memphis, TN 38131

Tell your friends, tell your cousins, tell your MOM!

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Posted: October 25th, 2007 under Plus Sized Possibilities, Upcoming Events.
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I am sure there are many fans out there of Queen Latifah. She’s an amazing woman. I got this email from AOL Black Voices and wanted to share the link with you: Queen Latifah’s Style Evolution

It just goes to show, that no matter your size, you can do anything!

Posted: October 22nd, 2007 under Plus Sized Possibilities.
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Halloween is a great time to shed some inhibitions! When choosing a costume for Halloween, be adventurous. Play out one of your secret fantasies on this mystical, magical night. Let yourself be daring and bold and sexy on this one night where good girls get to be bad.

Sexy fishnets and heels add attitude to any Halloween costume. Be a “Little Slice of Heaven” in a beautiful long line bustier with a lacy petticoat and sparkly fairy wings. If a petticoat is a little too daring, wear a corset and wings with you favorite jeans, pants or skirt – white frills for good fairies, black patent for bad fairies. Which one are you?

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