Plus-Size-Diva

Wow…talk about a bad day..lol

You know it’s funny how hard we can be on ourselves. A few mean words, not even spoken with your mouth but thought, are enough to take a good day and turn it into a really really bad one.

This is why it is so important that we keep positive thoughts, and positive words flowing for ourselves. You don’t have to wait for someone to compliment you, compliment yourself. I will be the first to tell you, some days it’s easier than others. Some days it’s really hard. You seen this from my post the other day…it happens.

I have never wanted to be ’skinny’ but I would love to be in better shape. I would love to be a bit smaller than I am now. I know that being skinny isn’t in the cards for me, but I can be healthier. That is what I would like.

We are faced everyday with beautiful women and what society insists are beautiful people, but what we have to do is take stand and realize that beauty really does come in all shapes and SIZES.

I remind myself of that every day, and every day it is a struggle to keep myself positive. But it’s something that I am striving for…to be my own best compliment! “I am BEAUTIFUL”

You know I try and try to keep a positive image of myself, but I struggle with it just like everyone else does. Today isn’t a good day for me. I look in the mirror and what I see is a blob, in all my glory..

It is so frustrating to wake up day after day and force a smile on this face. When in the back of my mind what I am screaming is UGH! I don’t want to be fat..but you know what…I would rather sit here on my ass and be mean and degrading to myself than get off this couch and exercise. How sad is that.

Do you want to know why…because it’s fricken easier. I am angry at myself above all else. I am angry because I let the shit in my life that has happened to me to affect me even to this day. No I don’t wake up thinking about all the bad things, but I know that in the back of my mind and in my heart that’s what has such a control over me. (more…)