I have decided to join the gym. We are planning a trip to Disney World next year and I don’t want to have to worry about not being able to get on the rides with my girls. I find that I don’t do a lot of things because I worry that I am to big and would have to suffer the embarrassment of having to get off, or leave.

I love being curvy and thick. I don’t want to be small…I just want to be a bit healthier. Over the last couple years my weight has really went up and I realize that I need to watch it because of the health concerns that come with it. My family is plagued with Diabetes. Not something I want to contend with.

This is going to be a heck of a battle…but I know in the end it will be worth it. All part of this journey back to finding me. This is just one of those struggles that we all have to deal with…