I always try to do my best and stay positive about who I am. Some days it’s just to hard. Some days I feel like I am lying to myself about feeling ok with my weight, while other days, I do feel great.

I think it’s the yo-yo emotions that are so hard. They are as bad as the yo-yo diets I have tried over the years…up one day down the next, up and down etc! Such a pain in the rear!

This week has been a bit harder than usual. I made myself dress up a bit today in hopes it would make me feel better, needless to say it didn’t.

I think a lot of the problem is while we were away this past weekend at a resort in Tennessee, we had a jacuzzi in our room that was surrounded by mirrors. Depending on how you looked into it, it reflected like there were 50 of you standing there…can you imagine standing in front of a mirror, that is showing you 50 times over! Talk about depressing..

Then while we were out, I had my husband take a picture of me and my daughter and I looked horrible! I had to fight back the tears.

I don’t like feeling that way. I don’t like being embarrassed or ashamed to take a picture. But some days it’s so hard to not let those thoughts creep in. It’s so hard to fight out the voice of envy.

I am determined to stay positive…tomorrow will be better!