Introduction to Plus-Size-Diva
Hi! Thanks for checking out my blog!
My name is LaDawn. This blog is going to be a journey into my realization that though I am a plus size woman, I am still beautiful! This blog is not only for myself and my journey back to finding myself..but for every plus size woman that has been in my shoes! Feel free to leave your comments!
Let me give you a little information about myself.
I am 26 soon to be 27. I am a mother to two beautiful little girls and happily married for almost 8 years. I have never been ‘thin’, but after my second child the weight seemed to pack on. I have been trying for almost 4 years to lose it without much success.
Have you ever gotten that comment, “You are so pretty, if you would just lose that weight…” Well…I heard it most of my life and still hear it now! It infuriates me when someone says it too…I would rather you keep your ‘compliment’ to yourself if you are presenting it to me this way.
I never realized until recently how much my weight affected my self-esteem.
I recently returned from a wedding, I found myself escaping from the camera every time I seen someone coming with one. When I got home and was able to view several sets of pictures from people at the wedding, very few had me in them, it was as if I wasn’t even there…I realized in that moment how ashamed I was of the way I looked.
Now ask yourself this…Why should I be ashamed? That’s what got this whole thing started with me. I started doing some soul searching. As I am sure you will as you read more…
I let what I thought other people thought about me dictate my thinking.
Instead of feeling confident and beautiful, I let myself feel ASHAMED! At what point did I give that control over?!
Posted: August 16th, 2006 under Beautiful Woman Journal.
Comments: 2
Comments
Comment from Sylvie
Time: September 20, 2006, 5:22 pm
Sweetie, if you only saw yourself the way I did when you were at my wedding. You are absolutely beautiful, and I was so proud of you!
Yes, you are a big, beautiful woman, and that is nothing to be ashamed of. Did you look at the pictures that people took? You were stunning!
Take another look in the mirror and try to see yourself the way others do. Try to see yourself the way your husband does.
If that doesn’t work, blink twice and try again.
I’ll tell you what. If you promise to try, I promise to do the same as I look at my own reflection in the coming months. Let’s make a promise to each other not to let society’s idealogy of what is considered “beautiful” to get in our way. Let’s just be too busy being beautiful to care, ok?
You are loved!
Sylvie
Comment from Gail G.
Time: October 20, 2006, 11:22 am
Hey LaDawn,
First I find out our artist friend is in New Zealand and now I find out you have a blog! You are all so full of surprises!
We haven’t met so I never had a mental image of you. I can only say, you have a great work ethic and lovely spirit and that seems to me far more precious than being a size 4.
I also think we women have to stop hating ourselves for not being “perfect.” We inadvertantly - because of preoccupation - have let men continue to run the world. And look what they’ve done with it.
Every woman I know - no matter how tiny she is - has a big complaint and issues about her body. And what has it achieved other than to keep us from feeling happy and accomplishing more important things? Let’s figure out how to be indifferent - and wear that attitude with pride!
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